My anxiety as a writer on Medium (gone).
This is not an informative story. Just a writer’s confession.
You can feel free to ignore this story as this not going to help you to become a better writer — than now.
I noticed this pattern for the past couple of months. Some people scroll/swipe their phone’s home screen often — with no purpose or no intention. It's just out of habit. Like the phone replaces some kind of fidget toy. Like that, I am frequently fiddling with Medium (app on my phone).
Mostly to check the notifications.
So far my frequency of checking the notification never let me see a notification count beyond a single digit point.
This slightly kind of gave me a high. For a certain time.
Not only to check the notification. I have this habit of seeing my home page (of Medium) to see who is writing on what. Usually, I check close to two dozen familiar author’s content and some new content from new authors.
It looked perfectly normal. I thought it was my strategy — to get the vibe (trend) of the community. So that I can follow it — to my success.
Just recently I came to the odd awareness of this pattern. Checking Medium daily — But not for reading the stories.